Our heavenly Father, through Christ, has given His children the amazing gift of grace with zero strings, yet we seem inclined to try and fulfill some sense of duty or obligation. No strings. If God had wanted puppets, He wouldn’t have given us free will. Yes, He wants our obedience, but not without our hearts. Obedience without love is simply law.
If I get stuck in a rut of self-condemnation, I can envision whatever I’m feeling guilty about nailed to the cross. It is finished. Over. Done with. Gone. Kaput. He didn’t die that we might wallow, but that we might live!
Instead of feeling condemnation for not having enough will power, consider talking to Jesus about what’s really going on and ask Him to show you how grace and love can turn things around.